I remember sitting in a math class in middle school and learning about permutations and combinations. Remember this?
“If something can be chosen, or can happen, or be done, in m different ways, and, after that has happened, something else can be chosen in n different ways, then the number of ways of choosing both of them is m · n.” (TheMathPage)
As the number of things (letters) increases, their permutations grow astronomically. For example, if twelve different things are permuted, then the number of their permutations is 479,001,600. (TheMathPage)
Ironically, what I had once ruled out to be tedious busy work, has been the formula that have been occupying the whiteboard of my mind.
Choosing between this major, that minor, this boy, that internship, just to name a few. Mixing the order, the things, and the timing have been punched into my calculator enough to callus my fingertips. Decisions can be overwhelming, especially for an over-thinker like me.
My prayers have been a lot of:
“Father, I like this but I also like this. I want them both. I can only choose one, huh? but I just like them, oh and also this.”
“Father, I don’t want to pick anything.”
and my personal favorite
“Wait, so I have to choose…I’m confused”
I was overanalyzing a situation just yesterday when I had the strongest impression to stop and study my scriptures. So, in the HBLL, I closed my textbooks and my computer and opened my Book of Mormon right where I left off.
10 Wherefore, brethren, seek not to counsel the Lord, but to take counsel from his hand. For behold, ye yourselves know that he counseleth in wisdom, and in justice, and in great mercy, over all his works.
13 …for the Spirit speaketh the truth and lieth not. Wherefore, it speaketh of things as they really are, and of things as they really will be; wherefore, these things are manifested unto us plainly, for the salvation of our souls. But behold, we are not witnesses alone in these things; for God also spake them unto prophets of old.
He knew. AND He always does.
He is aware of our every decision, worry, desires, and goals. He knew I needed that and He spoke to me and impressed my mind with thoughts that allowed peace to penetrate my heart.
I cross-referenced to Isaiah 55:9 (one of my favorites):
9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
Work hard. Don’t give up. Stop worrying. Believe in yourself. Serve. Love.
Even though I have 479,001,600+ options, the things that matter most are those 12 words. I think I’ll live by that, and let the Lord counsel with me.
(and you should do. maybe you could help me at it…)